You know when you are super busy and all you can think about is having some down time to do what ever you want with? Well I have some down time right now but I am a bit limited. I am feeling stuck inside trying to heal from a bike crash. In summer mind you. The first few days were rough because I slept a lot and struggled to eat food that weren't in tiny pieces. Laughing was a struggle and my back was always aching. I am at this phase now of still healing but wanting it to be over. I still get dizzy if I walk and I cant stretch without feeling stuck in it. I stopped taking one of my pain meds because I am able to bare the pain but that means I am awake longer, contemplating my life. I know there are things I could be doing but I am lacking the motivation to do it. I am bummed that I am missing out on work because these 2 weeks were gonna be the best weeks of camp - survival overnight and a mountain bike expedition.

I am grumpy that I am grumpy. The day of my crash I was so relieved that I didn't break anything but here I am slowly healing and I am complaining. It's a tough transition going from my busy routine to becoming a couch potato... so this shift has been difficult. I want to go outside but the sun hurts - it doesn't help that the temperatures are sky rocketing right now!

I am used to doing things and getting things done and seeing people and dancing in my room and for days I have just been icing my back, sleeping, watching shows, stretching for a few minutes, then eating snacks. My life feels lame and I am being hard on myself - It hasn't even been a week since my accident. I think about how little yoga I have been doing during summer camp and right now I wish I could be doing yoga all day everyday - we want what we can't have am I right?

This must be a lesson. A lesson to take it easy on mountain bike jumps haha but also to be easy on myself. That even though I have to take life a little slower doesn't mean I need to stop being positive. I can do the yoga that I can for now and be productive in moments that I have the energy.

I have whipped out the banjo a bit and I am glad to be blogging, even though I am just splurting out all these negative thoughts that have been trapped in my head for the past few days.

I have had friends come visit me which is nice but a teeny tiny part of me wants to be cuddled. luckily my best frand Rachel Ray said she will be my boyfriend tomorrow so I am grateful for that.

I am feeling useless and it is bringing me down. It is hard to admit this because I always look for the light in any bit of darkness but I am krannkkkyyyy.

krAnKY

KRANKY

CRANKY

cranky.

crr

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nkiiee.

I am lacking vitamin D.

okay I have one nice thing to say,

Getting a black eye has given me a lot more street cred and I am looking forward to how bad-ass these stitches are going to look like once they scar.

Gotta go get water - dehydrated.

Bounce,

Zoey Fern